Years and more years ago
A child was born a little girl actually
She had 10 fingers and 10 toes
Perfectly perfect in every way possible
Only one thing was really missing
Her parents really did not want her at all
They had wanted a little boy more
Maybe that was why they wanted to give her away
But they took her home and left her alone
Her Moms friend tried to help, though she had a life of her own
But sometimes she forgot and left her in the dark
Even though the baby grew with a little care here and there
No one really knew
How life at home always made her hide and cry
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Much to young to be in school her parents took her everyday
Changing the date on her forms so she would have to stay
Always so small and lost in the classes
Grades werent good and the other kids learned to laugh
Calling out names and pointing at her
Hiding in the bathroom until it was time to go
Years go by and nothing is learned
School the only escape away from home
Somehow she makes it through
all the grades shes needed to
Time for a much bigger school now
Walk through the doors with a smile everyday
Forgetting that soon it will be time to go home
For some reason your parents decide
that school is no good for you
Its filling your head with nothing but dread
You have to stay home and be helpful for bread
Quietly missed days turns into weeks and weeks into months
Excuses for school your sick and not well
until finally your not living there anymore
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Its funny how at 9 your cooking dinner and keeping time
You pay the bills so everything runs fine
Cleaning the house at exactly half past nine....
Mom is gone again....when will she be back
Dad for the week is some guy named John Doe
Taking care of your brothers and sisters is work
Their needs come first, always and almost
The youngest call you mama but no one tries to correct it
Thats just who you are for all the five
Its just by chance that your the oldest....
So many mouths to feed without any food
You split everything five ways only...you say your not hungry
Your stomach growling in your ear....watching as the food disappears
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A few more years are gone....
Mommy is home now but shes not really there
Sometimes she leaves and cant find her way back
No one knows that in the third apartment up on the third story
A family of children live quietly playing on the floor
Its been three years now since you
really took over the mommy role
Making sure your brothers and sisters go to school
so no one is harmed
Walking both ways with no coat or sleeves
Your just going back home, who knows who is sleep
Your moms boyfriend just happens to be home
Watching tv and laying around
Hoping not to wake him, you hide in the room
Its to late hes knows your home and where you hide
Looking out the window and seeing how high
You think about jumping or if you can fly
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The door is opening quite slowly you see
Hes afraid ill hit him and bring him to his knees
Hes wrong today, im not hiding away
No more hiding since the first day
You do as he asks quite willingly and fast
hoping it will be over, much sooner than last
Closing your eyes your a million miles away
safely playing the game of the day
How many times has this happened before
hoping and praying that someone will come
Finally hes gone and you can move again
Always a little sore and bruised from where hes been
Its to late to clean you have to pick your siblings up
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Your luck has ran out your carrying his child
Hiding it for as long as possible until its starting to show
No one to help no one to call
You wait in dread for when your parents to walk through the door
Mom is home first you instruct your siblings to go in the room
And lock the door and turn everything up as loud as it will go
She finds out the news and immediately screams
"your not my daughter so get out of this house"
No where to go you argue for a while until finally
you break down and cry
Telling the story of how long its been going on
And how many of her boyfriends
Decided she was good enough to please
She didnt believe and called you names
over and over until nothing was left
Its to late to run, hes at home now
He lies and screams "its not his"
No one listens to the girl anymore, as she argues in her head
Mommy leaves the house and he looks at her mean
Telling her that it was mean...how dare you tell your mom what i did
Not knowing what to expect she backs up to the wall
But he follows and yells that the baby wont be born
Grabbing at her arms she yells for help
Pushing and kicking at what ever is there
Hes much bigger than her and stronger too
Its not a long fight and but goes on for a while
Until it hurts to scream and it hurts to cry
Its hard to breath and harder to see
yelling for your brother to call the police
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He tries to help but its to late now
Holding your head and watching you cry...
the police come and question what happened
He knows the answers that need to be said
It was an accident it wont happen again
They fix you up to go to the hospital
Don't worry they say it wont happen again
And there right for the most part it wont happen again
You try to hold on to protect your family
But so many hurts that the doctors cant fix
Looking at your brother holding your hand
Looking in his eyes you know all the love he has for you
Knowing he will protect all the younger one now as you did
Taking your last breath comforted a little to know he will be safe
Closing your eyes you finally float away
Its all over the newspapers the next day
The story of how a young 14 year old girl died that day
With the loss of her life her brothers and sisters were taken away
Slowly able to understand that there oldest sister had painstaking
Saved them all on that cold January day....
