What if ?

what if you fear life more than you fear death
what if your afraid of your own parents
the people who are supposed to protect you and love you
what if you have forgotten how to cry
to protect yourself from being hurt
what if you cant ask for help
for fear of being seen as weak
what if you built a wall around your emotions
thats so strong it will never really come falling down
what if your so quiet people forget your there
what if you fear letting anyone get to close
for fear that one day they will learn the truth
what if you fear being talked about
so you avoid being in crowds of people
what if you dont like being watched
so you look no one in the eye
what if you fear being loved for fear of being left
what if you cut to ease the pain
because it is easier than everything else
what if the benefits dont out weigh the problem
what if above anything else you fear being alone
but you will die 1000 deaths before you ever ask anyone
.....to stay with you.....