My Punishment
Why do I need to explain?
what cant be said
what wont be accepted
why should I make it so that
you will feel comfortable
while I will still be hiding and lying
why do you say you want to understand me better
when you look me in the eye
and still tell me bold faced lies
you want to know why I say I deserve to be punished ?
why I can hurt myself as you like to put it ?
and on purpose at that
you give me funny looks and pretend caring
until I don’t know what to do or say
I will give some people just a little bit of credit though
those who try to understand without all the labels
those who care enough to say I will be ok
without sending me to the doctor
to be poked and prodded
when the answer is right there and you still don’t see
just how easy it is for me to punish me
you told me I was bad and stupid
you told me you didnt need me
one day I had to stop letting you hurt me
now its my job...
the only thing I can promise is
no one can hurt me more than me
