Unspoken Words

i went to you for help an understanding
you lisetened politely and wished me well
i was the center of attention for a little while
no one else was there
just you and me and all the empty chairs
you let me speak my heart and watched me quietly
giving me the space to say what i needed
you didnt interupt and say you didnt care
but now someone else is here
you know them a little better than me
i became the watcher and listener
the conversation left me and started new
you forgot you were talking to me
i faded into the background
not able to understand why you didnt hear me
maybe i didnt talk loud enough
maybe i didnt demand your attention
maybe i didnt cry and yell and scream
maybe i wanted you to include me just a little
maybe i wanted you to remember i was there
maybe i wanted a hug and a kiss
maybe i wanted you to say you needed me
maybe i needed to here you say i love you
but im still there just waiting patiently to be seen
now there are many more people here
can you even see me anymore
would you notice if i was to leave
would you remember you once cared
i start to walk away silently
the tears roll down my face
i wanted to say thank you 
for talking to me and letting me know you cared
but i didnt i dont want to interrupt
a little sad and a little hurt i still say nothing
i leave the room just for the day
i cant turn my back on you
as i felt you did to me
i will return when you have more time for me
please dont forget me
i will still be here
waiting for when you will come back
and remember that you need me

Powerful Words

today i told someone i hated them
but i didnt mean it
please forgive me

i told someone i loved them
and they thought i lied
why didnt you believe me

i told someone i wished they were dead
that was an accident
please give me another chance

i asked for forgiveness
and you didnt hear me
i said i was sorry

today i called someone a liar
please realize i was just upset
give me a second chance

i swore at someone
i spoke before i thought
please know i didnt mean it

today i laughed at someone i didnt know
i realized how wrong that was
and will never do it again

today i saw a friend get hurt
and was powerless to help
i only saw the tears

today i was the best friend possible
i helped when you needed me to
i made you smile through your tears

i let you know i cared
and that i was there
and always would be

today i made a mistake
and realized i had had to forgive myself
before anyone else would

What I Want

mommy i want to be a writer

will you help me spell the big words

 

mommy i want to be a dancer

will you teach me to stretch

 

mommy i want to be a doctor

will you show me how to make a difference

 

mommy i want to travel

will you let me learn to drive

 

mommy are you there

or did you leave again

 

mommy can you hear me

or are you not listening

 

mommy do you want to know

what i want the most

 

mommy please listen

 

mommy this is imporatant

 

mommy i want to be your daughter

will you love me...

No One

no one saw the little girl
sitting quietly by herself
no one asked where her parents were
or asked why she was alone at night
no one noticed she had no shoes
and her clothes were dirty and ripped
no one asked if she was lost
or needed help
no one gave her a blanket
or something to eat
people went by to busy to notice
to rushed to care
over and over people walked by
talking on cell phones
pulling there kids along
more and more she was glanced at
maybe they wondered a little as to why she was there
but then they forgot
that night a storm came to the little town
rain, snow and even some hail
safe in the warmth of their homes
no one remembered the sad little girl
the next morning all over the news
the story of a missing little girl
found dead and alone
seeking people with any news
shocked this had happened
who was to blame
they just thought someone else
would come and take care of her

At Night

Late at night behind closed doors

no one will hear the yelling

no one will see the tears

no one can help you

these are your parents

they are supposed to protect you, love you

comforted to know your brother and sister are hidden away

with only one warning

"DO NOT COME OUT NO MATTER WHAT"

only five and seven they must be protected

at 10 your their mom their best friend

uh oh mommys home now

be as quiet as you can

she works alot she has headaches

she loves us no matter what

its your fault this happens

the glass starts to break

shes yelling your name

the door crashes open

pretend to be asleep dont move for anything

but it doesnt work

"where are casey and adam"

"where are they hiding"

you say you dont know to protect their lives

she grabs your hair and pulls you from the room

"liar i hate you"

"i wish you were dead"

it doesnt matter your no longer there

everything she says is true

your bad your stupid

"clean up this mess"

glass on the floor alcohol in the air

oh no daddies home now

you start to clean up, to go back to your room

mommy and daddy are drinking again

the fighting starts the threats are thrown

you can hear mommy crying

you have to protect her

runnning to help you get right in the middle

"go away go hide"

when your grabbed and thrown

falling on the floor you realize your mistake

"im sorry mommy help me"

the kicking starts first until its hard to breath

"wheres the others dont tell a lie"

"mommy help me make him stop"

pulled by the leg he picks you up

now the hitting starts until you cant see

"stop crying you baby"

suddenly your dropped everything hurts

laying on the floor, trying not to move

daddy is gone

mommys in her room the door is locked

getting up ignoring the pain you start to clean up

make sure things are neat again turn out the lights

you go try to clean yourself up so you wont frighten your brother and sister

why bother the mirror its happened before

locking the door you go to them happy to see they are sleeping

but you can see they have cried

unable to understand what happens just seeing the bruises

you try not to cry as they wrap around you

"is daddy gone again"

"are you hurt bad"

safely hidden away you keep watch protecting until the end

no one trys to come in he doesnt come back

soon the door will open a new day begins

the bruises will be covered

you just got hurt playing

broken bones will be fixed

nothing ever happened

nothing bad ever happens....

Beads Of Life

the beads of life can come in

every color

every size

but there all different

no two the same

that would throw off the chain

all of them have there on look

there own style

there own design

they can live together

and work out their problems

dont worry about yelling

or screaming

it doesnt matter

everyone counts

they have to fit together

equally or none at all

A Parents Promise

will you promise to never leave me
promise to always be there when needed
promise to love me because im there
just think about it

but promise not to say no

promise you will never go away
promise you wont leave me in the dark
promise not to give up on me

i know im asking alot
maybe even the impossible

but promise to never yell
and smile alot instead

promise to have fun and stay safe
tell me you can promise
maybe not all but some

 

promise to protect me
and keep me safe
make sure im not sick
and to get help when things get rough

 

promise not to lie about the important stuff
promise not to keep me in the dark
promise to tell me whats going on
so i wont worry to much

 

these are the promises that i need to hear
but if you know you wont keep them
then dont promise anything