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my body is broken
the tears will not come

the pain never stops
i remember and forget and remember again

i am lost in the struggle
pushing and hoping and waiting
screaming, crying, praying

waiting to be saved
waiting to save myself

behind the wall
where the memories lie

the door is cracked
the lock is broken

my heart is empty
my mind is shattered

together it forms
someone who is not real

together it forms
the truth
and a lie
where hiding means safety
where protection means hurting

lay my soul bare
there is nothing left to hide

the emptiness consumes me
i slowly disappear

lost

the broken becomes lost
the lost become confused
the confused begin to forget
and then there is nothing left
a shell
a body
broken beyond repair
listless and hopeless
waiting for something
anything
no one is home
no one can hear
everything has stopped
and no one is near
its game that is played
every day
every week
every year
how long does it take to be remembered
how long before you are no longer there

cyr